By Jane Hamilton
I never would have lost my mind
Had someone not been lying and unkind
I had to hit rock bottom to do something new
I had to black out and have delusions too
I am committed to making sure that was my last episode
No longer am I carrying the world peace heavy load
I am now focused on what I can control
And not making my mind, heart, and body pay a toll
Hurting my loved ones I will do no longer
Because my control over my thoughts and actions is stronger
Jane had her first psychotic break when she was 37 years old and in a marriage that was harmful to her well-being. After a brutal divorce and years of psychotic manic episodes (with a pattern of wanting truth and love and world peace) and hospitalizations, she decided to eliminate the stress of her job and quit. Since then, she has been taking meds and attending groups regularly and has been episode free and plans to remain that way. She hopes to inspire others on their journeys to mental wellness.